LAST KISS BEFORE I DIE….
(Dedicated to all the Smokers…)

Just before I sink into reality,
And enter the doors of the unheard,
I amalgamate the loose sheets of the past,
To feel her existence in my soul.

Fragrance of her last touch
The breath and the mesmerising touch still young inside.
Lone shadows on the deserted lands
And the simplicity of the confusion…
Freedom fights its way out from the doom and the ruins.

A soul I was, searching for a grave to sleep in
Deceptive cocoons they made around me,
Lies, hatred, anger and the masks,
It was fake all around to be in
On the fragile line, unaware where the illusive side lay
There I saw her for the first time.

Dressed all in white and golden locks inside
So tender and so pure,
I stared at the divinity and made an endeavour,
To put my head on her shoulder and cry.

The first touch and we blended in each other,
The shiver on my lips
And her existence in my every breath
Gave me the holy ride
But soon she turned into ashes conquering my desires
Heaven I saw so close in her eyes
That was when I smoked my love for the first time.
I ran regretting the overflow of my desires,
The passion the lust we shared
It took long to get her off my mind
And soon, I reached blankness,
It was the place I spent years of my life.

Where there was no love no sacrifice of the true kind
In void of the ruins,
The aroma the taste the feel of her expressive love kept alive.
Not my first love she was
But I saw love indulged with sacrifice for the first time.

Then I realised she was immortal
It was all because of the traits and morals in her life
No papers of the blind law and the blind society
But we married each other in front of fire
A mighty truth from the nature
Mocking at the lonesome society
As our love moved higher.

Wherever I went, she never left me
Pink romance it was; fooling time and stealing moments
There she laid the foundations of the perfect lover to be
Long wars with the society
But she brought snow covered mountains’ mystique.
Ended all my sorrows with a magical heel
She took me to a land of peace
Magic spell so mysterious she caste
Its exuberance made me forget my existence’s deal

An obsession she became
A complete freedom in herself
And I wanted to fly with her
To a land I had never seen or thought of,
which was so immaculately sane.

They raised fingers and called me sick
Perhaps they never knew what love was
I never hid my love from anyone
Never bothered for the kisses and love bites, her presence
was so apparent to everyone.

So chaotic ‘they’ behaved and departed in my presence,
Still I moved on, burnt myself in the love of her desires,
Coz it was time to sacrifice myself
I saw the end in the setting sun (but wasn’t afraid of it)
And thought, who will take care of my little one
when my soul slumbers.

In the shackles of the human decision we departed
And now I call them mad
Who are not here in this asylum
Unaware of the love of their life.
Soon I shall taste the obscurity, they say
But it’s an encounter with the reality.
I have a cancer inside and they all blame my love for it
It’s just the reward of the air I take in, I say,
That is mixed with hatred, lust, greed, anger and the other evils of insane human mines.

Just one wish as my time nears
Neither do I want a comfortable bed nor a soft loaf of bread,
Neither am I concerned with the fake materialistic oxygen mask
Forced on me, forcing me to die.
Let me just be free from the hypocrite evils of the society,
The rage in the blood, anger in souls, lust fro power
And the hatred in the air,
Let me drown into this toxic love free from the sickening oxygen,
And sleep forever in peace.


ANUGAM GOSWAMI